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Thursday February 16th 2012, 10:31 pmThere is an emptiness here now, as we try to do the normal things, the things that need doing, laundry, getting groceries, going to the bank, paying bills. But nothing feels normal, and probably won’t for some time. We’re exhausted mentally, emotionally, and physically. There is a heaviness in me, especially when I look into Wendy’s eyes. The heartache pours from them, and there really is nothing I can do to stop the pain she feels. I can only share it. I wish I could sweep the broken pieces of our feelings into a dustpan and shake them out into a trash bin. But that just isn’t realistic. So we try to do the normal things, that don’t feel normal. Our friend Ubence sums it up nicely when saying, “Nothing ever quite fills in the space that is left behind”. He is so right about that. We’ve experienced this before with another furry friend years ago, but it still doesn’t prepare for it to happen again. We accept these little adorable creatures into our lives, knowing full well that we will out live them, its just how it is. But even with that rational knowledge it doesn’t protect against the eventuality, when death takes them from us. Love is more powerful than rationality. I’m sorry that I keep having to write about unpleasant things this past week, but this is what we are living right now. I will try to be better tomorrow.
The Missing Space
February 16th 2012
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From someone that is no stranger to the difficult times, my deepest condolences.
Comment by Gonzalo 02.17.12 @ 12:11 amLeave a Comment
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My condoleance for your loss.
Comment by Mathieu 02.16.12 @ 11:20 pm